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“Hey! Has Anybody Seen Billy?”: Audrey’s Missing Dream Lover

Bing pokes his head into the Double R to usher in the Part 7 credits sequence by shouting this sentence: “Hey! Has anybody seen Billy?” The name Billy didn’t have any meaning before this moment, but it sure means something now: There’s someone named Billy, and someone is looking for him. Thus begins one of the stranger Where’s Waldo-style side quests of Twin Peaks Season 3. Did you see Billy when you were watching? Did anybody? Let’s go through what we know and find out.

Audrey, Part 12

Season 3 Audrey Horne looks angry

After Bing’s question, Billy’s name doesn’t come up again until Part 12. And of course, he only comes up to add confusion to the disorientation we were already feeling when we finally met up with Audrey after 25+ years.

What do we learn about Billy here?

  • Audrey’s having an open affair with him.
  • Billy is also involved with Tina.
  • Chuck stole Billy’s truck, but the truck was recovered and Billy dropped the charges.
  • Billy went missing a week after the truck incident.
  • Chuck told Audrey that Tina was the last person to see Billy.
  • Audrey had a dream in which Billy was bleeding from his nose and mouth.
  • Audrey’s been looking for him everywhere but the Roadhouse for two days.

What can we make of all this word salad?

  • We can associate the missing truck with the stolen-and-returned truck of Farmer—even though it was Richard Horne who stole it in Part 6, rather than Chuck.
  • We can also associate Billy with Farmer because they’re both missing persons.
  • Even though bad things happen to people in dreams—Ruth Davenport’s death in Bill Hastings’ dream, anyone?—those events tend to surface in Season 3’s waking life all the same.

The Farmer stands in front of his house wearing a checkered buttondown shirt, baseball style hat, long shoulder length hair and a beard.

Now that we’re on the lookout for Billy, he comes up again a few scenes later in the same episode, though in a way more akin to misdirection.

Abbie, Natalie, and Trick, Part 12

Abbie sits, looking to the side pensively, a few beer bottles in front of her already.

We’re in the Roadhouse watching Abbie and Natalie talk about Angela, another missing person. Angela’s probably off with Clark, who is super shady because he’s two-timing Angela with Mary. What does this have to do with anything? Not much, but Abbie and Natalie do know who Billy is. They mention how Billy hates Mary.

Is this a pertinent detail for Billy’s biography? Not at all. But it rules out Farmer as Billy’s identity as follows:

  • Trick meets the women at their table, talking about how he was almost run off the road but “some farmer” helped him out.
  • When Trick says “some farmer,” neither woman asks if it was Billy. They just brought him up, and it’s human nature to make connections—that’s why we’re here right now!—so it’s quite telling they do not make the connection.

Billy is not Farmer. We’re back to square one.

Megan and Sophie, Part 14

Megan sits at a bar booth, explaining a complicated story with her hands clasped in front of her.

In another Roadhouse scene, Sophie and Megan discuss the missing Billy. Here’s what we learn:

  • Megan is Tina’s daughter. They both saw Billy’s last known moments. Megan is our first eye-witness.
  • Billy can jump six-foot tall fences, run into a kitchen, hold his head under the sink, and take off again, all within 10 seconds, and all while bleeding profusely from his nose and mouth.

We don’t move too far forward in tracking Billy with this scene, but it does anchor Billy more solidly to the Season 3 world already in progress. And just like how two scenes were paired in Part 12, there’s another connecting scene in Part 14. This time, the additional scene presents us with the most likely identity for Billy yet.

Drunk, Part 14

Drunk's pained face is imitating sounds he hears nearby. His face is between jail bars and his facial injusry is painfully visible.

Disgraced deputy Chad Broxford is arrested and put in the basement holding cells. In addition to Lodge denizen Naido, there’s a third character in a cell: Drunk.

Drunk definitely looks worse for wear, and he has a loose bandage over an unhealed wound on his mouth. This is our Billy, right? He’s got all the earmarks, the visual ticks. The only problem is, he can’t say anything unless he’s parroting the words and noises around him. Which places him in Dougie territory. Why?

Because he still needs to wake up from that dream Audrey saw him in.

Billy (Drunk)

Let’s say Drunk is Billy. Let’s also say Billy’s behaving just like Cooper as Dougie.

  • Drunk’s wounds continue to gush just like Megan described.
  • He can’t change his own bandages.
  • He can’t make words of his own.

If this means he really is like Dougie in a one-for-one comparison, that means Billy’s not charged with the right kind of biological electricity to function on his current frequency of reality. He needs a proverbial fork in a socket to wake up where he belongs.

What method of shock would do that? I believe it’s when he begins peeling the bandage off his face in Part 17. After all, he disappeared right after he did that. He’s missing when Andy brings everyone upstairs. He didn’t wake up in the jail because he was barely there in the first place.

Billy’s from the dream. That’s where he went.

Chad

Chad facisiously wipes a tear from his eye as he belittles who he's talking to.

Chad is the only character in the jail cells who is shown in negative light. He’s also the only one who seems capable of seeing Drunk. They share a like frequency.

When I say frequency, I mean this: I’ve got a working theory that Season 3 is viewed from an in-between state of reality at the junction point between a positive real world frequency and a negative delusional dream frequency, and characters tune back and forth as they choose which state to exist within.

Using this logic, Audrey Horne at the end of Part 16 may want to leave the delusion and wake up, but she can’t. She’s stuck in the Lodge-adjacent dream state where she can only speak words when framed in a mirror, while the band she was just dancing to plays their song backwards. More on that later.

Chad—instead of joining the other guys in the light of day—was captured because he was working for the most negative figure of the whole season: Richard Horne. And Chad is the only one not oblivious to Drunk. Drunk is tuned to the negative dream frequency, because he’s Billy and he’s from there.

But does that make Billy a tulpa? Probably, but I don’t think that matters.

Billy (a la Judy)

Audrey dances over a purple light, her arms upraised and she's lost in feeling.

To the plot, maybe Billy is Drunk and maybe he isn’t. It doesn’t really matter, because to the theme, Billy is another thing you chase when you should really be deciding to wake up. It’s honestly a lot like the whole Judy thing.

A whole bunch of people are trying to find Judy, and they’re so focused on that quest that they fail to notice the weird state of reality they’re in. You could say the same thing—on a much smaller scale of course—about the people trying to find Billy. Trying to focus on a negative force seems easier than doing the work to figure out your coordinates and shovel yourself out of your situation. After all, finding Billy or Judy would solve the problem, right? Sure, everything except for the shoveling.

Audrey had the chance to stop looking for Billy at the Roadhouse. Charlie gave her a chance to choose toasting to themselves. That simple affirmation would have been an investment in literally Audrey’s present. But Audrey toasted to Billy instead. That’s when things turned Lodge-style.

Audrey literally turned her eyes away from her life and looked to Billy, because she didn’t do the work to grow love between her and Charlie. Instead, she invented a distraction to find love—not just a contract. Dreams and delusions can be merciful to a present situation, but they also have a masking effect. Like a dream covering the world “like a river.”

“Has Anybody Seen Billy?”

The crowded night shift at the Double R, as seen from the back of the booths looking towards the front door.

Bing’s words, by the way, are a paraphrasing of a title from the 1965 TV Western Laredo—and we know Lynch and Frost love their old Westerns. Laredo‘s sixth episode from Season 1 is titled “Anybody Here Seen Billy?” The plot itself isn’t any kind of one-for-one comparison, but it does bring up another related theme: if you’re stuck too deep in the past—such as with Lucy and cell phones—you’re not living in your present.

  • Bing is saying something that is anchored in the past when looking for Billy.
  • When Chad sees “Billy” he’s trying to avoid his present by escaping rather than being accountable for his poor choices.
  • Audrey is trying to find Billy to escape her life rather than build through its established foundation.

Looking at these thematic statements together like this, it paints a picture, doesn’t it? Sifting through all this information, I’d have to say Drunk is the identity we can comfortably pin Billy on, but it feels way less important to figure out who Billy is—and where to find him—than for characters to stop looking for him. They need to wake up, and get to work. That’s probably why we were never explicitly told if we really met Billy, or not.

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Written by John Bernardy

John Bernardy has been writing for 25YL since before the site went public and he’s loved every minute. The show most important to him is Twin Peaks. He is husband to a damn fine woman, father to two fascinating individuals, and their pet thinks he’s a good dog walker.

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  1. This brilliant article is my introduction to both Electricity Nexus and John Bernardy. I am currently in a deep dive into the TP universe, and you are serving up my personal version of garmombozia. First rate! I’ll be back for more.

  2. Nobody’s ever going to find Billy until one of two things happen.

    1. You figure it out for yourself.

    2. Somebody who knows, like me, tells you who he is. And I won’t do that.

    He is there if you know how to see and recognize him.

    But oh, those preconceived notions. They just keep getting in your way. Billy is probably just not who you want him to be.

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